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Below are the 18 most recent journal entries recorded in matty oc's LiveJournal:

Friday, April 16th, 2004
12:44 pm
beep beep
1 week and im out of this fucking country and ill be frying like a piece of bacon in the land of the darkys. fuck i forget i have one of these fucking things.

Current Mood: busy
Sunday, February 29th, 2004
2:35 pm
2 day hangover
ya that fucking ruled, just able to eat something after friday night. goddamn i cant drink like i used to, black out jonny is a bad influence on me all these younger kids are for christ sakes.

Current Mood: hungry
Sunday, February 22nd, 2004
7:01 pm
da fight
what a violent night. watched luis's fight at avalon, he got disqualified. stayed for mcguinnes's fight, he should have won but that little brazilian was fast as fuck. went over to the younger kids house afterwards, i love bisexual college girls, there is no need for game it is great. i feel bad though for splitting mattys lip, but i think he needs to stop breaking up my fights, that fucking kid has always been a bitch and if i see him again ill lay him out again. but ya what a violent night it was.

Current Mood: amused
Wednesday, February 18th, 2004
9:51 pm
money money money
so went to queer eye for the straight guy store, got new glass's, thanks gay guys... started booking for the cruise only 1200 for the cruise and plane tickets to miami. lets see what else??? luis fights saturday night at avalon should be intresting hanging out with the "BOXERS". o well im done, i got no money now and im tired as fuck.

Current Mood: drained
Thursday, January 29th, 2004
7:06 pm
well laddddeee freaking duh
home for once, fuck im tired, next week move in to ollies in harvard sq for a few, an apartment and the 2 coolest dogs ever. tomorow night first time in a year dealing with crazy paul, luckily mattys 21 now so it wont be me and bad news. pray for us now and at the hour of our deaths amen...

Current Mood: drunk
Thursday, January 15th, 2004
4:43 pm
jumpin jesus on a pogo stick its cold out
fucking a i swear i came within minutes of frost bite this morning when i was getting diesel for the truck. tomorow is mattys 21st birthday, god help me the thugs will be out in full force tomorow night in fanuel hall. im curios how many fights will go down and if a few certain people will be strapped for this?? why cant we just have simple fun people, not fights, but ask me that night and if i dont have a female by the end of the night im sure ill be starting a few.

Current Mood: cold
Thursday, January 1st, 2004
12:23 am
so much for new years
tonight was so fucking fun hanging out with my friends until we went to the party and out of nowhere my new found anxiety problem popped up and i walked a mile to davis sq and caught a cab home because i was nervous about seeing people i havent seen in a few years. jesus fucking christ happy newyears matt put a bullet in your head now

Current Mood: aggravated
Monday, December 29th, 2003
7:49 pm
the dawning of a new age
so it finally happened fosh and kerry are engaged... how can i be suprised but iam, my best friend is now engaged, me and dave are the best man. mario's married fosh is engaged, jesus fucking christ i still having trouble opening a jar of peanut butter.

Current Mood: envious
Tuesday, December 23rd, 2003
12:43 pm
yo yo yo
if you dont work you should not be allowed to drink. yup... i have a ever growing love for metal now
Wednesday, December 17th, 2003
4:31 pm
what a cool fucking idea
i just heard this on the radio, they are going to make a small hockey rink and make it just hockey fights, sort of like ufc but in full hockey gear and on the ice, that is gonna fucking rule, thank you north dakota for coming up with this idea. in other news im waiting to find out the deal with luis if he is fighting in the next tournament cause i would like to see that. i moved more snow today and almost leveled some kid with the loader, i felt bad but then started laughing cause he had emo glass's on. ducky boys show coming up, i dont know why i use to hate them but now i dig, also same with the haunted, ah well fuuuck it. soo many people are home now my quiet life is slowly depleting and i hate it.

Current Mood: fired up
Tuesday, December 16th, 2003
12:22 pm
just finished christmas shopping so fucking easy except for my sister i went all over the goddamn planet to find the first season of teen aqua hunger force but had to give in and order it online. im fucking spent plowed sunday at6 pm till my shift ended yesterday at 4pm. considering that last week i plowed from saturday 4am till sunday 6pm. im gonna have a shitload of blinb bling now but i can tell my body is all fucked up from doing this. i havent had a drink in awhile cause i have 1 and im ready for bed. waiting to hear from jake to find out his deal for new years and if i will head up to montreal to get out of here for a bit.

Current Mood: tired
Saturday, December 13th, 2003
9:24 pm
life of agony one of the greatest bands ever
Have you ever woke up screaming?
Have you ever woken alone?
When the walls around you won't stop laughing
Where do you go?
Sweat seeps in your eyes at night
And you realize
That no one understands you at all
Well I was bound to have a nervous breakdown
Should've seen it coming from miles away
So I packed my bags and started running
My brain's been shaking since yesterday
But there's only so far you can run boy
There's only so far to leave your problems behind
'cause when the problem's yourself you start thinking
No matter how far
You'll never leave it behind
No one understands me at all
Now I'm 22 with still no clue
Of who I am or what I'm supposed to be
I know it to you it sounds funny
You've got it worked out like it's a fuckin' disease
Started asking myself do I fit in?
Where I belong
Could this really be me?
Been feeling downright ugly
Tell me is this the way it's supposed to be?
So what's the difference?
You're doing fine
The clock keeps ticking as you lose your mind
The one you need to call you
Never calls
Sweat seeps in your eyes at night
And you realize
That no one understands you at all
Wednesday, December 10th, 2003
9:27 pm
at the gym today i was done with a set and i felt like i was having a heart attack so then a panick attack set in, then i realized that i wasnt having a heart attack but i was thinking about kerrys mom having one. thank god im going to the doctors tomorw i cant deal with, since that night i beat that kids head in and woke up with his blood all over me these attacks have been worse and worse, hence the name retiredtoughguy. lastnight i came home with a 12 pack and my grandfather stopped me coming into the house and sat me down with a beer and said these words to me "i know you arent perfect, i see the scars on youre knuckles and i was the one to come outside when the police and firemen were outside thinking they needed to revive you. i got into fights but they never ended up in people in the hospital, i killed a man and it was during war." thats all i can say from that conversation. it fucking broke me, ive always thought i was this tough bastard all the things ive gone through in life and my grandfather the one man i never would think of killing someone admitted to me he took someones life, someones fucking life. now i think more and more why he has always been so protective of me, i thought it was being adopted, i thought it was him not letting me grow up, but no it was him caring for me, not having to go through more then ive been through that he wasnt there to stop. jesus christ this feels good to write down.
Thursday, December 4th, 2003
10:00 pm
thursday night
just got back from conleys with all the lp somerville kids. tomorow night is mcmullens retirement party should be fun but ill probably get called into start plowing at about 4 am so not too much drinking for me, wich sucks because im gonna be around all the people who always want me to come around so they can buy me a drink cause they remember me running through the neighborhood being a hoodlum causing all the trouble, when now im trying to stay away from the booze so i dont do shit like that. this is a wierd fucking world, thoughts of moving up to montreal seem better and better all the time but i cant leave boston too many people depend on me and i refuse to let this city get the best of me others cant handle it but i can. im sick of all these boston implants coming into the city basking in all its "cultural experiences" fuck you, go to amherst. but if anymore friends die from this oxycontin herion bullshit i might just cut all ties and leave everyone this is getting to the point where i dont know who is gonna go next and who is lying about being off this garbage. i cant say anymore final goodbyes to friends at 22.
Wednesday, December 3rd, 2003
6:57 pm
another day older and deeper in debt i owe my soul to the company store
well i just realized some people in this thing have harvard sq as an intrest, i wonder if i put it in mine if i can locate kids from back in the day??? paid off the last student loan from my whole 3 weeks in college that costed me 10k, so now im down with that nonsense now i just need to pay off this computer that lets me bitch and moan on here, then my car then im out of debt.

Current Mood: tired
Tuesday, December 2nd, 2003
7:56 pm
even fucking colder
goddamn my car is acting retarted and im tired as a japanese hooker at a chinese convention. the skells and sinners and saints are playing middleeast upstairs in january so im pretty fired up for that. i need to go see a surgeon my hand is getting all fucked up again from nerve damage and the abuse its taken there after.

Current Mood: content
12:03 pm
fucking cold out
on my lunch break now after freezing my ass off all morning outside. i fucking hate snow that doesnt equal me plowing.

Current Mood: cold
Monday, December 1st, 2003
7:27 pm
my first time writing
well lets see, lots of alcohol has been consumed lately, another friend dies from herion, and i got to see a shitload of people i hated in highschool pretend to be my friends and buy me drinks. i hate thanksgiving just for the fact that all these fake fucks come back and expect me to give a shit about the memorys i never had with them. well jesus this is pretty wierd writing about my life.

Current Mood: exhausted
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